Today I found old poetry,,,

Poetry I wrote when my youngest was about 3 years old. After reading it I felt so bad for writing some of the things I wrote, and did. I actually thought if I die and someone finds this they are going to think I was crazy. I think I was on the brink of some mental break down back then, obviously I felt it or I wouldn't have written about it. Those were hard years , from the time he was 2 until I would say 5. Even today though, I often do not have the patience with him, and wish it was bedtime. Things have dramatically improved though, since he has learned that his behaviours do have consequences , and he knows right from wrong. Back then in his first years of life, he had no concern for the people he hurt, the rules he broke or the things he ruined. ADHD is like that..they are impulsive, have little regard for rules, and have so much energy you dont know how to harness it. Today he still has an overabundance of energy, and he is so relentless it drives me to drink, serioulsy some days I need one. If the energy is not being harnessed in some productive way, he will find an unproductive way to use it. Every day is a new story around here. Thank goodness I have read about many many people with ADHD that have become extremely successful, and are very intelligent ..I know my son is very smart it's just sometimes he doesn't want to use that intelligence in the best ways. So my poetry today, is more about the things I see happening with his growth, the good things that have happened since the days I was a wreck. I never thought I would get through those days, and I used to go to bed, and think what will tomorrow bring, what things will happen that will test my patience. Now I go to bed and think about the progress he has made, and the future he will have. It's been a long road to get here, and he is only six!! I know there will be many ,many more challenges ahead for me, and him, but I think I am handling it a lot better now, and with less drinks too !! LOL...