2 days! I am off to Sin City!

I am excited ,,,in two days I will be in Vegas! It is an early birthday present. Forty is only a week away.....

I am meeting my twin sister and her husband...Mikes family will be there too.

More than anything I am just glad to be getting away. Although the timing isnt great, since hockey playoffs start. But there never is a good time to get away around here. Thank goodness for my Mom and Dad, they will be looking after the kids.

I am hoping to get some shopping in, a few good meals, gambling and maybe a refreshment or two!! Oh and of course breakfast in bed..... no kids to eat it all!!!!

Just a post.... happiness...it is in us all....

Nothing really significant to post here. But it has been awhile since I have been on here.

Really I have been just thinking lately how content I am with life ,these days. Sure I still want to strangle the kids , when they wont listen. Or maybe even "run away" for a day or two.. Just to escape the daily grind...but when it is all said and done..LIFE IS GOOD..... I have not always been able to say that ...so it feels good to say it and feel it....

I owe this feeling to my awesome friends, family, husband, kids,god, faith, and so much more......

So today that is my post ,just that,,,, I have a good life and I am Happy!.....

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open. " ~John Barrymore

"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have." ~Frederick Keonig

karma..do you believe in it?

(Karma ----the cosmic principle according to which each person is rewarded or punished in one incarnation according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.-----action, seen as bringing upon oneself inevitable results, good or bad, either in this life or in a reincarnation)

I have been thinking alot about why things happen to people good or bad, especially when the 'thing' you did is something you can control. Will the bad things really come back to haunt you? What if you are truly remorseful, does Karma still come into play? What about all the good deeds people do, does karma work for them too?

I am not losing sleep over all my bad deeds(lol) or wanting some recognition for the good ones( i have some of those too)... just really wondering about it all.......

UGH,, I just wanna sleep!

I am just tired and want to stay in bed!!!!

more fooling around

I sure need help...i hope i can get into a class soon.......

feelings for a Tuesday

I am thinking..why am I writing today? My answer is stress and confusement. Sometimes I just do not understand people. I can try and try but there are certain times I just dont get it. This is one of those times. So after a weekend of not sleeping and feeling very stressed out I have decided, that there are things, I can not control and I need to let it go. Even if my heart aches and my mind thinks it is right. I have to let it go.

So today I ponder and write. about the fragility of our lives. How we really need to embrace each day ,,,try to make it a great day..not just a good day.. Now that is hard to do ,,I know.. because I am an emotionally driven person. My mood can change faster than the wind.

Today I have decided to get back into teaching, just as a substitute teacher. I will probably be working by next week.

I have mixed feelings about this decision I have made. I am scared. I am scared of giving up my free time, ( i know selfish) ..I am scared that my house will become a pit... I am scared I will be bitchy.. I am scared that i wont be the one who is available to the people who need me,, at the drop of a dime....

but,,, I am also excited about using my education again... About being around other working adults. I am excted about helping kids and maybe being a postive influence,, even just to one child,, I am excited to make some money.. my money!!

So time will tell...... I hope this is a good decision.......

What a beautiful day!

It's Indian Summer! What a week we are having. Its above 20 all week , yesterday was 25! I really love Indian summer, it just puts you in a good mood. This morning I got up at 5:30 and went for a walk. The air was crisp but not in a way that made you cold. I walked until 7:30 am and watched the sun coming up. Such a simple thing, like a sunrise can really set the tone for the day.

I will enjoy the weather today and all week...because this will end and the winter will creep in and my mood will shift. SO ENJOY TODAY!!!!!

He seems to be gone

Orby, that is. We had frost last night and today I can't find him. His web is not redone either and I dont see an egg sac........ who knows..... bye bye Orby

This is our resident spider ORBY

This is ORBY... He is a Jewel Spider ,,,We had a bit of infestation of these last year and this year we had quite a few too. When we would see one we would kill them.... But for some reason I couldnt kill this one. He has been on our deck for about 1 month. He is actually kind of pretty an orange rusty color. The others are more whitish in color. Makes me think he is a male. Anyway we have watched him eat flies etc. He would come out at night, hide in the day. Yesterday I went to check on him, (I know wierd.) And his web was broken and I couldnt find him.. But just a few minutes ago I found him tucked under the lip of the roof. I am wondering why his web is broken and if he is done with his circle of life....... I will keep watching...

Just some pics I took,,,,,

Two very unique dogs....

This dog is a purebred Newfoundland Labrador. I saw this dog sitting outside a glass shop Invermere BC. A very friendly dog!! Huge too!!

This is an English Mastiff. He weighs 210 his name is Major... we calledhim Musaffa... He belongs to a family who runs the Bentley General store and he just sits lays and they have to work around him.. he is a real gentle giant....

Eerily Quiet

Noone is here. Justin is cleaning my truck, which will soon be his. The twins are at the golf course again,and Evan is playing at a friends house. It is so quiet in here I can hear the fridge going, and the air blowing through the vents. I always say I want these kinds of days, but I actually don't think I would like being alone for a very long time.

Justin came in on the greyhound last night, and yes he was intact( not funny but after the episode last week I was nervous). When I got ready to pick him up, all three boys wanted to come. I think they miss their big brother more than they let on. So today it was great to have lunch all together. Just me and my four boys. It was a great lunch, everyone was laughing and getting along. Even Evan was super well behaved.

Makes me wonder when they are all gone from the nest, how I will handle things. I think it is going to be very hard..because if this quiet time I am having now, is any indication. I think I will be lonely.

flowers in my garden

These flowers are like paper
If picked they will rip
Leave them in the garden
To stare at while you sit.......

GUESS WHAT????

STRESSED IS DESSERTS spelled backwards............Oh my that answers so many questions..LOL..