That is about how I feel today. I didnt want to come on here, after over a months absence, and complain, but here I go. It is not that life isnt good ,it is actually pretty grand. All the boys are well, and doing so good in school. I have a University Graduate this month, and 2 honor roll boys, and one who is always full of love and spirit. That is not too shabby. No it is not that.
I feel hum drum, because my body does not want to keep up with my mind. It seems that every week I have some new ache or pain. I mean I have been dealing with chronic neck pain for years, and have coped pretty well, and accepted that fact that it is never going away. But once again, I am having leg issues, and back issues. I am just really tired of waking up and always being in pain.
I took everyone's advice and pretty much have cut my running in half . (Due to a lengthy ,hip problem , about 2years ago). I have done that and have taken up walking 5x a week,and I still go to the gym,participating in a boot camp, and some minor weight lifting. I will never give up exercise, but have modified it in many ways.
I guess my frustration is the fact that I try to do something 5-6 days a week, some sort of physical exercise. What do I have to show for that? Well a body that is in pain , and a 5 pound weight gain, that I can not seem to shake either.
I also have continual problems with my digestive system, and just recently caved ,and take a pill everyday. I actually feel better because of the pill.
At the moment , I am digging out my WW things and reevaluating my whole eating.
My goals are really to lose 5 pounds in a month but more that that to be fit without being in pain!!!
I have two races in 2 months , one is dualthon and the other a triathlon. Both are sprints. I want to do well in them and feel great about the accomplishment. I hope that this body will not fail me........and I hope my mind doesnt give up either.
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