UGH,, I just wanna sleep!

I am just tired and want to stay in bed!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SEVEN YEAR OLD!!!

Hard to believe Evan is 7!!! Evan is such a great kid, he brings to the family lots of love and spirit! Yes sometimes it can be too much to take, but I really think my life is so much more rich because of him. He always is there with a smile and a hug. I love you so much Evan!! Happy Birthday!

more fooling around

I sure need help...i hope i can get into a class soon.......

Just fooling around...

feelings for a Tuesday

I am thinking..why am I writing today? My answer is stress and confusement. Sometimes I just do not understand people. I can try and try but there are certain times I just dont get it. This is one of those times. So after a weekend of not sleeping and feeling very stressed out I have decided, that there are things, I can not control and I need to let it go. Even if my heart aches and my mind thinks it is right. I have to let it go.

So today I ponder and write. about the fragility of our lives. How we really need to embrace each day ,,,try to make it a great day..not just a good day.. Now that is hard to do ,,I know.. because I am an emotionally driven person. My mood can change faster than the wind.

Today I have decided to get back into teaching, just as a substitute teacher. I will probably be working by next week.

I have mixed feelings about this decision I have made. I am scared. I am scared of giving up my free time, ( i know selfish) ..I am scared that my house will become a pit... I am scared I will be bitchy.. I am scared that i wont be the one who is available to the people who need me,, at the drop of a dime....

but,,, I am also excited about using my education again... About being around other working adults. I am excted about helping kids and maybe being a postive influence,, even just to one child,, I am excited to make some money.. my money!!

So time will tell...... I hope this is a good decision.......